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Wednesday, May 24, 2006

Wed, 24 May 2006 22:21:15 GMT

Life is picking up again...

So, life is looking a little hectic the next couple of months. Besides the projects that are currently going on, I see that my work will increase with team members going on business trips/vacations in June/July. Naturally, it happens to be around the time where I'll have to move (again), but then I have my own (first!) business trip coming up (two weeks in NY! Weee~!), so I have to time my house searching/ moving accordingly. That doesn't leave too many weekends available for me. I guess I won't be getting much sunlight either way with rainy season approaching us soon. Although looking at the amount of rain we're getting, I'm not sure if we're in it already.

Monday, May 22, 2006

Mon, 22 May 2006 14:20:34 GMT

Summer? ...or not?

The weather's been completely freakish the past couple of days. The weather report has been completely unreliable, (which is partially because they have a decades-old outdated weather satellite) and even the ol' look at the sky routine didn't work out this weekend. Take Saturday. Weather forecast, "Cloudy throughout the day, then rain". I look into the sky in the morning. Not a single cloud in sight. Day ends up being a scorcher (I turned another shade darker). Around 3pm, clouds suddenly roll in from nowhere, and out pours merciless sheets of rain. Several hours later, the rain past, the clouds were gone, just as quickly as they came. Ok, who's playing with the weather machine here!? This is not funny... Man, soon it'll be hot in the morning, snowing in the afternoon.

Can't sleep, clowns will eat me...

Wed, 10 May 2006 13:34:13 GMT

I have found that jet lag has wondrous effects in helping me wake up at odd hours, like 4 am. As this has been continuing since I got back, I quickly discovered that my conscious state has fallen to the level that barely rises above comatose. It seems that alcohol doesn't do too well in keeping me from waking up at those twilight hours, and I doubt sleeping pills will either (although I don't have any either). I think age is starting to factor in as well.

Anyone have any tips they're willing to share to quickly get over jetlag?

Monday, May 08, 2006

Mon, 08 May 2006 21:30:08 GMT

Back In Japan...

Coming back to Japan, everything doesn't feel the same anymore. As I was riding a train back home at 8pm, I saw the difference already. Inside my car, everyone was dressed in a suit, going home (or drinking) with their worn out faces, only to face another day. When I was in LA, I saw parents enjoying time with their children, friends hanging out at a 7pm weekday game in Dodgers Stadium. There wasn't a single suit in sight.

I enjoy my work, or do I? I'm not so sure, looking at all the lifeless faces around me. Perhaps I'm being bought into this society conducive for work, and I haven't realized how much of my soul has been eaten away from this. I have to really think about where I am right now, where I want to go from here.

Thursday, April 27, 2006

Thu, 27 Apr 2006 18:04:23 GMT

It's been a long time...

It's been four months since I wandered off here. I feel so... out of touch. Yet, I sit in front of the PC, just staring at the blinking cursor trying to coax me to type an awe-inspiring entry.

...

Nope, ain't happening. After rummaging through my boxes of stuff that is sitting in the garage (I'm back at home for vacation), a sudden calling came to me to come back. Maybe it's all those nearly forgotten memories that just struck me wave after wave. I think that might be it.

Looking at the boxes of stuff that I had compiled over my days in school, I wonder now why I even thought of saving certain materials. It reflects how much I have changed, as the value of the same document, or same picture, or some other memorabilia changed within these three (almost four) years. Was this change for the better? Maybe I've become oriented to see things from a "corporate" perspective. I don't know if this means I've matured, or I've just become jaded by corporate society. I'm not sure to feel good about this change, or sad because I've lost something...

Thursday, December 08, 2005

Thu, 08 Dec 2005 08:24:05 GMT

Mizuho Eats It

http://www.bloomberg.com/apps/news?pid=10000080&sid=avd1QPYq5Skw&refer=asia

Interesting to see how this pans out. Although not indicated in this article, it was found that Mizuho was behind the screw up. Man, scary how one order can potentially screw up the entire firm.

Monday, December 05, 2005

Mon, 05 Dec 2005 10:06:09 GMT

On Saturday, the moment I heard that gasping I knew it was over. That would be the last time I would be holding it in my hands. Not even two years has passed by, but after years of being together, that day was the last. Thanks for the thousands of memories that you have shared with me.

R.I.P. Jan. 2004 - Dec. 3, 2005.

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On Sunday, I had to find a replacement. After looking around a bit, (and with my friend's haggling skills) I came upon a fine replacement for my lost one.

Hello DMC-LX1, welcome to the family. I think that gaping hole in my heart left by my IXY 400's departurehas been replenished a little. Although the pictures of this one have more noise than desired...

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

Tue, 29 Nov 2005 00:50:06 GMT

Girl Dies After Kiss

http://www.cnn.com/2005/HEALTH/conditions/11/28/kiss.death.ap/index.html

Reminds me of Poison Ivy from Batman. Man, I can't even begin to imagine what's going through the boyfriend's mind, having to bear this mistake for the rest of his life. I know I'd never eat peanut butter again.

Sunday, November 27, 2005

Sun, 27 Nov 2005 17:37:13 GMT

Can't sleep, clown will eat me. -Bart Simpson (The Simpsons)

I'm stuck. For a long while, I watched from the corner of my eye. I had hoped it would go dissipate, but now I see the two ominious clouds are swirling into a thunderstorm. This sight and scene is all too familiar, and experience tells that deep scars will be left after the storm, if it ever subsides. Yet, as I watch the clouds swirl into a storm, I wonder what can be possibly be done to alleviate or optimistically even offset the storm. Favorable winds can divert the collision of the forces. On the other hand, the wrong winds will be adding fuel to the fire. Countless possible hypothetical scenarios are being analyzed to reach the optimal resolution.

Is there a resolution? Perhaps not. Perhaps the best resolution is to watch the storm run its course and take cover. In that case, I will definitely be making the wrong move as I am not the type to hang around and watch. However, I am not brash enough to vainly attempt to stop the impossible. If I can only create the right wind, the situation might end up for the better. However, there are two problems to this? 1. Does it even exist? 2. How can I even begin to fathom which direction these clouds will go?

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I just remembered that for the past several weeks, I've been having *almost daily* dreams that involves one or more of the following: 1. seeing my friends from back in high school. 2. running away from some heinous attacker. I decided to look them up.

Running
To dream that you are running away from someone, indicates an issue that you are trying to avoid. You are not taking or accepting responsibility for your actions. In particular, if you are running from an attacker or any danger, then it suggests that you are not facing and confronting your fears

Friend
To see your childhood friend in your dream, signifies regression into your past where you had no responsibilities and things were much simpler and carefree. You may be wanting to escape the the pressures and stresses of adulthood. Consider the relationship you had with this friend and the lessons that were learned. Alternatively, the childhood friend may be suggesting that you have been acting in a childish manner and you need to start acting like an adult.

Strange coincidence? Could be a sign, no?

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Wed, 23 Nov 2005 01:39:26 GMT

Elevator of Revelations

I bumped into my new neighbor in the elevator the other day.

At work.

Yes, he works at the same company as me. Yes, he works in the same division as me. I just never knew about it since he sat on the other side of the floor. Of all the apartments in Tokyo, he chose the one that is next to my room.

Coincidence or conspiracy? Who knows?